I relate to this too.

…ut guess what? When I got there, everyone else had aged and gained a few pounds. That’s what we do. My friend, Jo, told me that she and Heather had been hiding in the kitchen, drinking wine and avoiding seeing anyone, because it was all so overwhelming to put themselves in the view of others. That’s bubbly, extroverted Jo, by the way. Always the life and soul of the party. Or so I thought…

Whose Opinions Are Shaping How We Show Up in the World and Why Does it Matter?

Sally Prag